Feeling blue

This is by far the ugliest summer holiday I've even experienced
I literally don't have anything to do. I don't go out because, well, either my friends have jobs in the morning or enrolled in the summer term. Which leads up to the afternoon, but i again i have a work to go to. The work also became ugly and stressful because of the management's constant pressure on sales.

I didn't imagine it will turn out this way ....

Luckily, i know alot who got married this holiday but omg their weddings sucked big time! So much for a motivation to go to another!!

Again I'm bored ....

I wanna join a gym but damn they're so expensive! How come guys can have great gyms with less than 50KD a month while we have to pay 150KD just to get on the treadmill! This is so not fair

And i end up downloading movies, ordering from Amazon or searching for fabrics for my next design.

And i spend alot of money on meaningless stuff.

Until ..............
I had a fight with my friend which hurts alot.
I was supposed to go to her graduation party but due to undisclosed reasons we ended up being disappointed because some people chose to impose themselves which ruined the event. Therefore, she hesitated to go and i thought well, she's not going.
I decided to buy her some flowers to cheer her up and make up for her ruined party and later on called her and called her and called for 20 times without getting an answer. Next thing i know, she was at the party without telling me specifically when she know that i desperately wanted to go see her take the stand and receive that certificate. She just ditched me without even considering my feelings.
And when i told her well why didn't you tell me you were going, i bought you flowers, she said it was a last minute call.
I was really stunned at her ignorance
I was dying to go to that party but she totally ignored me and accused me of ruining her day!
Well, who is ruined now!!!
A simple phone call or a message would have spared us the agony.

This really messed me up and i don't know what to do. In fact, i don't think she ever considers me as a friend at what she did because friends would never do such thing. A friend would consider one's feelings and try not to hurt him in every way possible.
I still don't know how she was thinking and why she did it .... it's really painful to be cut out simply just like that by those who you care for.

Story of my life ....
If you felt miserable at reading this, well, hard luck! Mission accomplished. I don't wanna be the only one who's feeling blue