Story of a Sister

Ok so here's the thing.

My best friend M is finally getting married. She's not only my best friend, but she is my sister and my soul mate. We've been together for 10 amazing years and i almost cannot believe that she is a grown up now and about to tie the knot.

The situation is strange for me. It's not like the first time she ever gets engaged or neither do i, but the fact that it's final and real which is going to happen in just couple of days is scaring me out. I seriously cannot describe my feelings right now, but those who have a best friend who got married then they'll know how i feel.

I'm feeling sad, lost and lonely already. We are so close utterly beyond boundaries. Our families know each other and got used to each other so well to the point where whatever happens, trust and confidence will not be discarded.

We don't set appointments for going out or calling each other. I can wake up in the middle of the night and call her up, even if she was asleep, I'd wake her up and rant about nonsense. When we feel like going out, it just happens, we don't wait or take permission from anyone. I just call her: ha M, 7ady malla, fech 6al3a? She's be like: off 7ada, and I'll be like 5la9 shway wa amorich and that's it.

If I'm ever doing anything I'd do it with her instantly because i don't have sisters or first cousins to go out with. She's my companion for 10 years. We experienced everything. Whether sad and joyful, shameful and proud, small and big, we'd do it with a blink of an eye. We both drive the same car and love the same music. We're both romantic and dreamy. We've been out of line and then matured. We even laugh at our looks in days when we looked so crabby. We sang and danced together and cracked up together, even cried together. And to some point, we wanted to run away from home when we graduate from high school and start a band in the states. Those were the days when i just thanked god for sending her to me.

Now I'm seeing her gone. Though she is still in the same country and will not go anywhere further beyond my reach, but it's just so hard to see her set her priorities now. When she gets married, she'll have a husband to look after and responsibilities will start pouring on her from every direction. It will be just so hard to restrict myself from calling her or going out with her, because i know she won't be available as she was in the old days. She'd be busy setting a new life and a new home and I'll be waiting for her phone call to tell me that everything is alright and perfect and in the way she wanted it to be.

It's painful, agonizing and unbearable. I got used to her and attached to her to the point where i cannot accept the fact that she is going to be married and i have to get used to the fact that she no longer will be available.

Today, i went to the Avenues with my family and the picture is finally clear to me; She is not there with me and will not for a long period, and it hurts alot.

Other than that, i am so happy for her. It is what she wanted so far, and i couldn't ask for more. I hope she'd have the longest, happiest and most prosperous marriage ever. I wish her all the happiness in her new life where a husband loves her and looks after her with his utmost power, and where a family who supports her and children who cling to her.

I love you boo, and i always will :*
Take good care of yourself.
And this is for you, NAIL HIM DOWN :P