Concerning the previous lyrics; what should i do?
Should i give up hope which is the only thing that keeps me alive? i gave it up once and as a result; I cried and cried and cried until there's no more tears to hail, until the pillow got soaked up and i had to turn it over, until there was no more room for air to breathe, until the last beat of my heart that warned me about the possibility of losing it all; my life. But my life is over the moment i gave up hope so what's there more for me to live? That hope was my air, my water, my food, my love, my passion and my reason for me to live and to let it go and move on is to give up my life. But if i clung to it to the last beat, what will happen? i don't wanna go down to the bottom again where is sorrow and pain. It's a wave, once it rises up it crashes down real bad. And all I'm left with is a memory.
It's hard for me to give up something I've lived with and got used to. It's even harder to know that it's not my fault for this painful closure. It's rather some else's fault, some else who's in power to control two innocent souls in order to satisfy his own greed and selfishness.
What can i do? I'm scared of hoping and dreaming again out of fear of failing at it. But i don't wanna end up telling this story to my grandchildren, It's painful enough. I don't want it to be a memory, i want it to be a living proof of fight and struggle. What can i do to end this break down and continue living my life as normal as it was without surrendering to the painful reality? Should i fight? the hell with it I'm fighting until the last breath. I just wanna lye down then in rest and peace with myself.
I don't wanna lose hope but if i did, I'll be dead inside and if i didn't, facts will shock me to death as well. So i'm dead either ways.
This is really getting into me and tearing me apart and i must confess; i'm desperate.
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I am sorry loala...
If you truly feel this is going to make you lose your hope then I say fight. Fight until your last breath.
True love can be only found once. So if you are sure this is it, then give it all you have and don't let anyone (NO ONE) stand in your way.
Good luck sweetie :)
sweety just as urself do u really want this?
is it worth it?
and are u willing to face the consequences?
if the answer is yes
yes
and yes
then thats all u ned to know
and FITE never give up hope
Kinan,
I am fighting but the thing is, there are forces bigger then me trying to break me.
I truely believe in what you said, and hopefully god give me the strength to carry on.
eshda3wa,
Its is eshda3wa, it's worth everything i've worked for so quiting it will devestate me.
Thank you for the encouragement, i really need it.
When there is a will, there's a way.
No matter how much bigger or stronger you think these forces are it should not make you lost confidence in your own power and capabilities. The better the fight you put up, the weaker these forces will become and the stronger you will feel.
Make sure that your trust in your own abilities never breaks down. If you trust yourself you will be able to fight the greatest powers in this world.
We're all here for you :D
Be strong.
wow i've never seen this amount of encouragement before. I'm always telling myself to stand up and never back down, but if there's a party of this dilemma who backed down and surrendered it makes it hard for you to continue fighting, you know what i mean?
Thanks again so much, it really means alot.
I really hope what you're fighting for is worth it.
Look at this way, I'm older than you and I was like that. I was about to fight the world for what I thought I believed in, but later I thought deeply about it and realized that it's not worth losing my family for, and I was right.
Just think wisely, not out of emotions and love. Is he truly worth it, are u urself with him, is he controlling? I'm saying this because sometimes when ur in a relationship all u see is the he loves me and i love him thats enough. It's not believe me. If it's gonna be serious with marriage and kids, don't let only love be the foundation. It dies.
I'm not pessimistic but I'm older now, I can see that emotions are a fraction of the relationship.
My husband and I fougt against all odds, and we finally got to be together. True love is once in a blue moon. Dont give up, and dont get discouraged. What God has laid out for u , is what ur gettin.
But in life, u have to give it your all, and if u know that this si the "one", then fight, and let your hope and love-- lead the way.
Good luck to ya.
awww 7beebty come here lemme give u a fat huggie!! (})
If u think ur dead in both ways, either if u give up or fight for it! i think fighting is better atleast u wont regret what u could have done someday! :)
Hi Loala,
Ok here are my two cents. My parents are both from a different religion, one is Muslin and the other Christian. My dad converted to Islam but this brought in a lot of trouble from both families. Both families were agains tthe marriage but my parents went ahead anyway.
They found it very difficult for a long time, and I am talking decades. Difference in mentalities (farmer vs aristocrat) different in raising, plus all the odds of their own families as well as dealing with the daily trouble. It was a hectic path, but what got them through all of this is the pure love they had for each other.
Granted, if you look at it from above, you will see they did not enjoy life as much as one ought to. Out of all the days, their happy days are a few, counted, and mostly around celebrations and ocassions.
But that doesn't mean they're not happy. Yes, they are not happy with the things happening around them, but they are happy with each other and around each other. And the thought this is the important thing.
Now, two decades later, the troubles are almost gone, but their love remained, and they're both happy about it.
But this is because they knew they could do it from the begining and did not give up. They had a will.
You need to take a step back and look at things around you. How will things change, what will happen, who will you lose. Who is more important, and who would not give up on you.
Because when you give up on the world for someone, it is hard to come back... my parents took them many years to "return". So before you take that step, you need to make sure that this someone is worth it, and won't turn the back on you midway and leave you alone.
I have to admit that I felt kind of silly when I attempted searching for the song of the lyrics to discover later that they are written from ur passionate heart
Which gets me to the next point, your feelings are soo strong that there is NO force (and I mean it) in the world that will crash you.
Be stronger, don't understimate urself.
But when all hope diminishes, then try to go down slowly so that the impact is not as devastating as it seems.
elijah,
Older is wiser :p
I tottaly agree with you, the thing is however, it's not some kind of childish fling or just an infatuation. It's bigger than that and i mean, everyone is aware of it; both families and both friends. So you can't just give up simply because somebody said no or because he\she didn't like you.
The way i see it, it is worth it.
nonowa,
Really? wow that's amazing. I really admire you for what you guys did. Alla yehanekom inshalla.
And thank you alot.
Missy,
Owww thanks :*
I'll say: fight fight fight
Kj,
First of all, allah yehanehom inshalla, they deserve it.
Second, i don't wanna shock you but what is devestating is that we're both the same religioun, the same background, the same intellectuality, the same age, the same ethnicity and the same nationality. The only difference however is the "family name" do you believe? and because i'm not fitting to his family's taste, is that injustice or not? you can't block someone's way because they can't fit to your taste? Not everything in this world should!! So you might as well adjust and live with it.
Hamza,
It's mariah careys :p
I love this "don't understimate urself"
Thank you for the advice alot
walla.
-- I know it's wrong to get too personal in the internet but i can't help it anymore, i need to lay out what's inside to feel reliefed.
Ah, the family name, yes we have that in Syria as well. A family name not fitting to marry from another family name.
Ok it is actually much simpler now than I imagined. What you and your hubby should decide is whether or not you two want to be the first to break this tradition. From what I understood it is his family that is not wanting your family name in the marraige. In that case he has to decide whether or not he wants to break this tradition, and if he does then go for it. If he doesn't then he puts unnecessary reputation and gossip before you and this is unacceptable to you.
It's not excatly about the family name, it's more like i'm "an outsider", not a cousin from any degree whatsoever. Baaah this is so stupid and retarted.
There's no tradition neither any rule that prohibits marrying someone not from the family specially when his father was the first one to marry an outsider!!!!! how ironic.
I really appreciate what you said kj, it kinda lifts my hopes up after they were down.
You said it yourself.
It's stupid and retarded :D
Good luck loala and let us know how it works out.
:p
Inshalla
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