Your pride

My love,

I don't know why i'm writing this letter to you, maybe because i dont not have enough words to express the sorrow i feel within, or maybe to wipe away the tears that are hailing

down my eyes while i'm writing this. All i know now is, no matter how much i write or cry it will not replace the pain and distress that life have caused me. My love, you are the most precious gift that life had possibly ever given to me. I could have never asked for more than the strength to carry on loving you. And it did. It made me stronger to defy all the obstacles and circumstances that stood our way throughout our journey, together. You cannot believe the joy you had given me; my life had just started ever since the moment you confessed your love and passion to me. My love, seeing your eyes while uttering I Love You made me realize the eyes of a pure lover. It lifted me up to heaven where only you and i reside. But my love, sometimes life isn't fair to those who surpass its sky to heaven to live it passionately, and to those who defied its wonders in order to survive its cruel and cold nights. And so, i am pleading you to forgive me for all the miseries that i have caused you. All the sleepless nights where you had to toss and turn in your bed becuase i couldn't be near. All the mistakes that i have done. All the selfishness in me used to keep you away from the blue. And the love that i have preserved only for you to handle when we go our separate ways. Excuse me my love for being sensitive while you're away. And for that, i want you to know that i have only done this becaues i'm madly in love with you. But it's too late, for you had to discover all that the day where our commitment seemed impossible to be. And i desperately know it's not your fault nor mine, but the fault of the hatred and selfishness that involved your most beloved ones. But know this my love, that i will never leave your side whether in good or bad. Know that i will always hold your memory in my soul until the day i die. It is the time where my heart is the only thing that is left in life; in your grasp. Please dont return it back for it belongs to you the day i met you. It was never mine. And i want you to forgive me for the mistake that i'm about to make, to take the role of a past shadow in your new life that is going to begin afterwards and be part of it, for i can not bear the injust separation that we were forced to come through. And be your pride in her white gown in my dreams, for it's the only way to comfort my agonized heart. Let me be your pride in my dreams, and your dreams too. And i will rest in sorrow then.

Sincerely,

Your love.