I'm going through a phase of complete depression:
- I can't smile.
- Nothing makes me laugh.
- Everything is hollow.
Part of it is due to the sudden changes that affected my life; my best friend got married and i got transfered to another department. And frankly, I'm not the type of person who embraces change and look at its positive side. It takes me alot of time and effort to adjust myself to it. And part of it it because I'm feeling lonely as a result of those changes.
And also, part of it is because my friend is shutting me out of her life ever since she tied the knot! I know that she's busy adapting to her new life, but that doesn't qualify her to shut me from anything special that happens to her! She didn't share her shopping sprees with me, she didn't express her opinion of ner newly marital status with me, and she didn't even tell me that she bought the ring for crying out loud! I had to ask about everything otherwise she wouldn't spill it out. Unfortunately, I'm getting the feeling that she doesn't accept me as a best friend although we've been together for 10 years. I believe that sharing is caring and she's just not sharing stuff with me.
I hear alot of stories of best friends sharing their engagement moments from A-Z. One who keeps her friend next to her in every detail before stepping into her house with her husband (shopping for clothes, jewelery, accessories .... etc) but M isn't really including me in her circle , so it hurts.
Aside from all this hassle, my depression keeps worsening at the new department i got transferred to. I don't know anyone there which will lead me to whole phase of get-to-know-people all over again. I've already established friendships at my old department and I'm not willing to make new acquaintances again. If i stayed there at least i wouldn't be this depressed because my friends would be all around me; something that makes me forget, and my time would be wasted on something cheerful.
But now, I'm all alone.
I don't go out which means I'm not having a good time.
I really don't know where this is going and for how long it will remain, but i think i might need to see a therapist; someone who might give me an insight of what the hell I'm going through.
I wanna experience something i happy, I wanna be happy
10 Interruptions:
7bebty dont be sad at all ..life is like that .. wala .. once its bad .. bs later .. before you know it everything is back to normal and you are happy again .. inshala .. i've been living through hell last couple of weeks .. bs this week things got better .. ooo inshala its getting even better ..
so just simle .. and inshala everything is gonna be okay ;*
ms loala..
this is ur friends moment
i know u want to share it with her
but let her do it her way
and just be happy that shes happy..
and ur not helping urself by just staying home the whole time!
go out see the world!
I think your friend may be pre-occupied with trying to figure out her future hubby(whether he is a morning person or not for starters) as well as other wedding matters (seeing as weddings are a weak substitute for raves in this country)
Don't take it personally. Just wait for the moment to pass and everything will be back to normal. (usually takes 6 months from the engagement )
i have been through a phase of "gamta" and it was because of stress piling up from everything until i can not keep track of what is really bothering me.
and i realized that we tend to worry about the smallest things try not to be bothered about ur friend and accept her the way she is maybe she does not feel comfortable sharing much about her marriage people are different and at our age having our friends tying the knot is difficult because we are not used to that life it is a whole new life.
and about the transfer be positive who knows you might b making new better friends, and the friends that were with you at the last department are still there you can always see them "kheera" is the word you should always use it helps and u will see it in the future
good luck and remember "il dinya mateswa" have fun and you can be happy if you wanna be happy.
dont be sad !!! just smile ! and kep the people u love smiling ! and believe me u will be the happiest ever
im sorry to hear all this ... but if u think ur feeling bad then check out the crap im in
Sweetie i dont want to sound harsh,
but u have to get used to things being different between u and ur friend....
Im not going to tell u its something that will last a few months and die down and things will be back to normal. Things will always be a little different, but that doesnt mean u wont be friends anymore.
Dont take things to heart, she might not be telling u everything cuz shes really busy and she doesnt have time. Try to offer ur help whenever u can.
If u were in a problem and u needed her she would be the first one by ur side, but right now let her be, there nothing wrong with watching from the side lines as she shines in the spot light for the time being ;)
And alone time is good. It shouldnt be lonely. Get used to being independent and doing things alone, it is fun!
I know how it feels..I am at a point now with no best frienDS...everyone is busy..no one cares..no one feels the need to share..
Tawli balek, be patient, pray... this is what you can do now
Things will solve itself with you and your friend. Give her time, she just got married.
get a french manicure :P :D I do things i always wanted to do...also a bit depressed...but hey at least u have a job :P..I'm home nearly all the time :P
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